When I first started my blog 3 years ago, I wanted it to focus on beauty, fashion and lifestyle and envisaged fashion posts and lookbooks- as this is where my original inspiration for a blog came from. Everything I blog about, is my own views and interests, my own research and my own style of writing. However over the years my blog has changed a lot, and personally I would say it’s moved leaps and bounds since I first started out on the Blogger platform writing about my favourite beauty products. But I have also adapted my blog over the years to accommodate what I want to write about more, or what I vision my blog to actually be about. Having said that, I have also adapted to what I only feel confident posting about. I had planned to make fashion posts a regular on my blog, tying it in with lifestyle however my sheer stage fright and hatred of having my picture taken really put me off doing it for so long, and so naturally I eliminated that feature from my blog and continued to grow it in other ways. I then became more confident in writing about certain discussion/debate topics and although I’ve been questioned about some of my posts (both positively and negatively), I realised that actually I’m not trying to write what someone else expects me to write about, I’m writing about what I love, enjoy and feel to write about. And honestly, I’ve grown to not really care what others think- in terms of blogging and other aspects of life too.
As I said before, I had a real issue being in front of the camera. I had so many ideas for posts that ended up just being ‘ideas-not-pursued’ or posts that have remained in my ‘drafts’ folder because I didn’t have the confidence to just go and do it. I had a real qualm about the way I look on camera, and don’t get me wrong, I still do. It was until I realised that the biggest roadblock that I faced, was myself and my own self confidence. Simply telling yourself that you look bad in front of the camera so you couldn’t have pictures taken of you or just saying that you can’t do something, knowing full well that it’s something you actually want to do, is most peoples biggest roadblock to pursuing their dreams, and it has been mine.
So I started to change my mindset. I thought, I could not give the things I want to do a go, and carry on wishing I would just do it OR I would just do it, try it, and see what happens… because what’s the worst that could happen really? It may not be a masterpiece, but I know that as soon as I just get started, I’m already 10x farther than I was just not doing it at all and watching others from the sidelines.
Why don’t we pursue the things we genuinely love or want to do? We’re afraid of breaking the mould, or our own mould. Most of us only really do whats expected of us or what we think is the right thing to do, or what we are used to. And we get used to this way of living. We are afraid of what people will say or how people react. But one thing I’ve grown to realise is that people will always have opinions, but luckily, that’s all it is… just their opinions. It shouldn’t determine what you do and certainly shouldn’t define YOU.
With that being said, I am so excited to finally take my blog in the fashion and lifestyle direction and I have exciting posts coming up in the next few weeks! Eeeek! I hope you enjoy!
We should all do what we love… it would be stupid not to. Just saying.